Thank you all so much for your encouraging comments day after day. More than you know your words do pull me along the road to recovery.
After yesterday's post about the moments of feeling discouraged, I thought I should turn to the positive side. One thing that really helps me is thinking of what brings me joy, so here are a few of them.
Childhood memories - I remember playing at the beach, big dinners at my grandparents, going to church with my own parents, and much more, all from before I was five.
Legacy - a friend who dropped by the other day reminded me that I have left a big legacy in the work I did promoting land trusts and conservation in Ontario. It's comforting to feel you've left something positive behind you after 35 years of work.
Family - of course my family is my biggest strength. I can't begin to describe the love I feel from and for my closest family - my son, my daughter, my sister, my cousin and above all my wife. At this stage in life, supporting them is my own goal.
Travel Memories - closely related to my family are the trips we've taken over the years, first the cross-country camping trips when our children were young, and later a number of trips my wife and I have taken. My northern canoe adventures were a highlight.
Friends and Relatives - beyond my close family there are dozens and dozens of others who have supported me. I know I sometimes take them for granted, but the many cards and the hand written messages in them I've received tell me that they all really care.
Nature - whether it's the gardens here or the tiny backyard at home, the waters of Georgian Bay or the forests of northern Ontario, being outdoors with all that greenery and fresh air has always inspired and comforted me.
This Blog - writing this blog is another source of joy, having such a tangible thing to do every day keeps me going, as do your comments.
So in spite of the hardship and frustrations, there are positive things for me to think about and remember or look forward to.